Aug. 10, 2017

Healing

 A lot has happened since the last time I have actually taken a moment to write something. Seems like we are always so anxious for Spring and Summer to arrive and then in the blink of an eye it has come to an end. I didn't really have plans for the Summer as I was in a lot pain from having a hip injury I suffered from two years ago while in my place of employment. I have been in pain for the entire past two years with it gradually getting worse.

After suffering and going to several doctors it was determined that I needed to have a hip replacement. I have to tell you I was very scared since I'm not much on hospitals, But I suppose no one else is either. I was worried about many things, such as my children, having to take off work, you know, the usual things that start fillng our minds and causing  fear to creep in when we are getting ready to go into unfimilar territory. I have to tell you, I am a total worrier, I know I should not be because the Bible tells us that to worry is not to have faith, and I want to have faith.

  I had myself all scheduled for surgery and had given notice of leave from work , went to my consultation to meet with the nurses for the pre-op and followed through with that part of it. My mom and my aunt were planning to come to North Carolina from Kentucky to be here for my surgery and honestly I was just a nervous wreck. Between hurting so much and limping so badly the pain was just horrible. I don't know if you have ever been in a lot of pain but when you are in pain for a long period of time it just makes you tired mentally. That is the point I was at. Mentally and physically tired and then worrying. I almost decided to cancel my surgery.

My hip had gotten so bad that about two weeks before my scheduled surgery I had to borrow a cane from one of my neighbor ladies, It helped a lot and made it much easier to walk,  but about 4 days before my scheduled surgery with me still thinking of just cancelling it, my hip and knee got so bad that I could barely take a single step even with the cane. All I could think of was " Oh wow, God is really tired of me doubting and has just allowed this to get to the point of having no choice".  So being in so much pain, and knowing that I could not even take a step I just had no choice but to go through with it.

My mom and my aunt came here on Sunday July 9th and on Monday July 10th I was at the hospital at 6:30 A.M. I was ok and did not have to wait long before they called me and took me into the pre-op room. Bobby went back with me and after the nurses came in and doctor came in to get me ready for surgery I remember them telling me that they would put medication into my I.V. but that is the last thing I remember. Honestly the medication was already in the I.V. and I didn't know it. The next thing I knew I was in a room and already done.  I was very grateful when I woke up. Honestly just grateful to wake up because my fear was of the anesthesia not the surgery. I came home from hospital the next day. It has not been at all like a thought but still weird/strange having artificial anything placed into one your limbs.

  It's gonna be a little while before I can move as I used to but it has been nice to not have the pain I was dealing with. I am ever so thankful for the Medical advancements that we have this day and time, and I am thankful for the doctor and the wonderful nurses I had. I also had a fantastic physical therapist who came to my home for 8 visits (Thank you Darleen Lee) and I am now doing the physical therapy exercises myself. But most of all I am thankful to God that he is the one in charge of all of the above and that he saw me through this difficult little time in my life. I am thankful to have my  mom and my aunt care enough to travel 8 hours to be at the hospital with me and I am thankful for my fiance Bobby for always being by my side in all I do. As you get a little older you really take time to stop and be thankful for the small things, and all things.

As I continue to heal I pray that I can be totally pain free and be able to walk really well because after two years of pain and not being able to walk well enough to even do things with my children, or sit on a park bench or do any type of yard work I am hoping to be able to do all those things again with an even greater appreciation of what God has given me.